I realized that I have no power at all. Any last vestiges of my dignity, self-respect, and confidence is torn away because I am powerless to react. Yes, your opinions are always right, and my feelings always too irrational, too unimportant to be considered. You are always right no matter how temperamental or how impulsive you are. You are always right despite purposefully hurting me. I am just a pawn to the life that you want. I have no individuality to speak of. Worse part of it? I chose to grant you this power to deny me by giving up my own. I thought it would make both of us happy, but no. I am not happy.
I guess I'm so used to giving up myself that now I truly believe in my powerlessness. No one chose this path but myself, and you shall watch my demise with a cold eye. What a wonderful backdrop to the course I am yet to attend - to empower myself.
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